oh, it's due today?

What is it about procrastination that attracts me? I swear I have good intentions. Every time a professor hands out an assignment I say to myself, “Jo, you’re gonna get right on this, and it’s gonna feel so good when you don’t have to worry about it right before it’s due.” Yeah, that would be nice but it just never works out that way. I thought that once I got rid of facebook that would be the ticket to instant studiousness. It wasn’t. I don’t know if I get some sort of high off of putting things off until the last minute. Statistically I don’t think it’s beneficial. I put off writing a speech that I’ve known about for weeks until this morning at 8:30 a.m. I had to give it at 10:30 a.m. What an idiot.
It's weird because I don't even freak out anymore. I don’t know if I’m getting better at handling the stress of it all or if my apathy towards my grades is increasing. I hope it’s the first because I really can’t afford to lose my scholarship. Paying for school just doesn’t sound very fun. (Right now I’m listening to Jason Mraz, some live stuff. It’s incredible. I would give up many things to have a voice like his. Dang.) Anyway, I really hope to find a remedy to this disease soon. Well, gotta get back to studying.